There is hope, Marshall.
My good friend and pastor, Hans Googer, recently posted about his affinity for the music of both Eminem and Andrew Peterson, strongly noting that Peterson sings about the answer to Slim Shady’s ongoing angst and problems. Well, Marshall, just in case you missed Hans’ post, I’ll share here the Peterson video and a video by Sanctus Real, both of which have the answer you need to your life troubles and pains. I am so glad you are able to see the relationship wreckage around you, and I respect your willingness to be so honest and open about it. I pray you find the hope and healing you need for your life and relationships, and I am eager to see the impact your talents and influence will make for the Kingdom of God when you have surrendered your life to Christ.